The exquisite process

Jan 10

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From the summer of 2020 until the end of 2021, I went through a range of physical changes including hair loss, cystic acne, fatigue, insomnia, and drastic changes in my cycle. Many of my friends who are mothers told me that most of my symptoms sounded like things they had gone through after giving birth. I had known it was related to my grief and my awakening, but it wasn’t until the other day, when I came across a spiritual text, that I put the pieces together. The text explained that fatigue and physical changes like the ones I endured are signals of the old self dying as the new self is born.

I think, to others, I’m largely the same person I once was. But those closest to me see and accept the new person I’ve become, and I’m so grateful that the universe has brought more and more people into my life who are also waking up, remembering their magic.

If you’re exhausted, depleted, fatigued, give yourself grace. You’re in the midst of the exquisite process of becoming.

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The Glimmering Podcast

Episode Seven: Becoming Lucid

As a part of my spiritual awakening, the universe told me to try lucid dreaming. Over the next year, I did everything I could to become lucid within my dreams, and in the process, I learned how to become lucid in waking life, too.

Interview: Tea with Intuitives

I loved chatting with Meli and Brittany about all things spiritual.

Episode Six: Let the Mystery Be

Long before James was my husband, his life was filled with mysterious encounters which gave him a peek into the unseen energies influencing our world. .

Episode Five: The Thunderstorm

When Rosie Chuong graduated from college, she took the first step toward healing from her childhood trauma: finding a job that would prevent her from having to rely on anyone else. She applied to dozens of organizations. Only one called her in for an interview, but it was there that she met Jess, who not only became her boss, but also her advocate, friend, and proxy family member. Jess opened so many doorways for Rosie, but it was the one she opened after she passed away that changed the course of Rosie's life—and her healing journey—for good.

Episode Four: The Iridescent Ribbon

Kerri Jones wore her fear as a protective shell, as if turning away from anything dark would cause it to disappear. But then, in 2018, the worst thing she could imagine happened: her 22-year-old daughter, Mikaela, passed away unexpectedly. Even though Kerri, her husband Johnny, and their son Alex were left in a stunned state of disbelief and grief, they immediately began receiving communication from Mikaela to let them know she was still with them. As cascading series of messages arrived, Kerri began to open up to a deeper understanding of both the seen and unseen worlds, which transformed everything about her life.

Episode Three: In the Quiet

To the outside world, it seemed as if Maggie Battista had been born under a lucky star. Her blog, Eat Boutique, quickly became popular and soon grew into a food gifting business serving some of the country's most prominent companies. She went on to host pop up markets serving tens of thousands of customers. On the cusp of opening a permanent retail space, something happened that halted her momentum and changed the trajectory of her life.

Episode Two: The Subtle Signs of Magic

As a child, Carol Cottrell could communicate with the spirits of people who had previously lived in her family's homes. But when a Reiki master told her, decades later, that she was a medium, she had her doubts. She began learning how to deepen her connection with the spirit world, and as she aligned with her true purpose, her life changed in mysterious and surprising ways.

Episode One: The Lavender Journal

Jack and I had always had a psychic connection. We could read each other’s thoughts, and sometimes we even shared dreams.

The ones we seek

At the beginning of my spiritual awakening, I felt very alone. So many magical and things were happening to me and around me, and I wanted to share in it with someone who could truly understand—someone who wouldn’t dismiss these experiences as coincidences or flukes.

The signs were there

A few strange things happened the spring before I woke up to my new life—foreshadowing of what would follow immediately thereafter.

Joy Uyeno

The exquisite process

The signs were there

Broken open